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Thursday, June 20th, 2002
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Looking at Leah's Hanson pictures made me half way sad. I miss the Hanson obsessive days. They were all smiley in those pics and it made me smile, but then it made me sad. I miss Hanson. I need a Hanson concert or some new music. When Hanson officialy stops doing music it's going to be a sad, sad time. :/
My sister is such a dork, she watches that cooking show all the time. I don't know what the guy's name is, but yeah, she watches it every night. She keeps showing me her vanilla coke too because I already drank all of mine.
McDonalds french fries and mcflurrys are so good. Sure I probably gained 10 lbs, clogged some more arteries, and put my precentage up for a heart attack, but hey they were good. :)
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My life is the same never ending cycle I swear.
I'm getting so sick of the crap she gives me. I can act as mad as I want, but truthfully I'm a wimp and it hurts.
Blah.
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Wednesday, June 19th, 2002
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LJ is being such a terd it won't let me do the full mode post or whatever.
Man am I ever tired. Oh well, it's good for me. Brittany picked me up at 5:30 and we went to volleyball, then ran around the school, and went and shot around for awhile in the gym. My feet hurt the worst, worse than my stupid knee. Volleyball was really easy, I'm just rusty. I can't hit at all. I can pass alright, I just could be better. Hopefully I'll get a starting stop on JV, that'd be fine by me. Varisty would be better, but hey I didn't play last year.
Sara, Sarah, Ashley, Lara, and I all met up at Ivanhos today to eat lunch. Man...our schedules suck. Ashley works from like 8-5 and Lara's got summer school at 1:30 then goes to swim practice til I don't know what time. But by the time Ashley and Lara are done with their things Sarah and I usually go off to some practice. So basically we can only all meet up on weekends. And it's supposed to be summer? Oh well.
Sara's moving back to St.Louis. There goes another friend down the drain. It hasn't really set in yet. It's just major suckage.
My b-day is in 3 days. I can't wait until Sunday. Doot, doot :)
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I'm such a loser. I downloaded the "previews" of 3 new Hanson songs off of Kazaa cause I can't wait until 2003 or whenever the heck the new album is coming out. I got "Crazy/Beautiful", "Breakdown", and I'm getting "Hey" right now. I love "Crazy/Beautiful".
I hope I don't kill myself at volleyball today. uh-oh
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I turn 16 next Sunday. Just thought everyone should know. :o)
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Saturday, June 15th, 2002
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I love Staind's "Epiphany" and Creed's "One Last Breath". Which is strange because those bands aren't exactly a favorite on my list.
Last night was Jen's going away party. Yeah, I didn't even get to hang out with Jen. That's why parties like that suck, you don't usually get to hang out with the person they are for unless you're super close with them. Either way I'm going to miss her though.
Drew tried to teach me how to drive his Jeep and it's a stick shift. Ha. I'll stick with automatics. It kept jerking on me so I just let him take over and we went on a little cruise. He can be a pretty cool guy, I talked to him a lot last night. He understood the whole "Mexican" thing Lara and I made up. heh MEXICAN!
Wes is an insane driver. "Oh, I'm just missing the pot holes." Ha more like trying to kill Lara and I.
Yup, Taylor Hanson's married. I had a dream he called me last night because I e-mailed him about the wedding and asked why I wasn't invited. He acted like he knew me too. It was all too weird. I had a dream Marcell came back too, we were playing soccer and it was back to the old ways. He'd be mean and then nice, but I woke up with him being nice to me. I landed on top of him one time going for a ball. lol who knows? i have messed up dreams.
I can't believe it, it's too weird. I mean I knew it was going to happen, but I always thought it'd be Ike, Tay, then Zac. And it would be like 10 years from now. It sucks, cause it still feels like I have to give up part, if not all of my childhood. Kinda like saying goodbye to a good friend. Yeah, I know you people that aren't Hanson fans probably think I'm crazy, but I grew up with this band. They were my everything for about 4 years. They kept me going some of the time. They were like my best friend in a way. I'd pop in one of their cds and be instantly happy or I'd watch an interview they did and laugh until my sides hurt. It's just things like that,that I don't want to give up, I mean I haven't been an obsessive fan for probably about a year now, but there's still a part of me that wants to go back to those years. But it probably just won't happen that way anymore. Oh well, as long as they keep making music. That's all I need is Hanson music. :o)
Cause I still believe there's something left for you and me...
http://geocities.com/julieuhz/yourmonth.html
JUNE
Thinks far with vision
Easily influenced by kindness
Polite and soft-spoken
Having lots of ideas
Sensitive
Active mind
Hesitating
Tends to delay
Choosy and always wants the best
Temperamental
Funny and humorous
Loves to joke
Good debating skills
Talkative
Daydreamer
Friendly
Knows how to make friends
Abiding
Able to show character
Easily hurt
Prone to getting colds
Loves to dress up
Easily bored
Fussy
Seldom show emotions
Takes time to recover when hurt
Brand conscious
Executive
Stubborn
Those who loves me are enemies
Those who hates me are friends
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| Time: | 12:04 pm. |
| Mood: |  amused. | | Music: | Creed- One Last Breath. |
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Rebecca cracks me up, dunno why, but I laughed at this
Rebecca: hey chicka
Auto response from NiKyoLe 04: I'm not here, don't miss me too much! <3Nik
Rebecca: u loser!
Rebecca: hey
Rebecca: look under there
NiKyoLe 04: under where?
Rebecca: lol made you say underwear!!1
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Thursday, June 13th, 2002
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Ok, so with all these Hanson rumors and hype spreading around, I had to pull out my This Time Around. I've been listening to it a lot lately though, not sure why.
I was woken (is that a word?) by the phone this morning. I said "hello" about 5 times and finally someone answered and it was a courtesy call, so I threw the phone across the room. Sales people in the morning are not good. I'm glad they woke me up though cause I had to be ready by 10:30 to leave to go to Jordan's. I got online before I went in the shower and got that card I posted the link to a few posts down from Lara. I almost wet myself. I don't think anyone thought it was as funny as me because you all don't know Joel, but it was funny. Gotta love Lara. hehe
I went to Jordan's with Brittany and Sarah and Sara showed up. *BTW Lara she said she was going to invite you and Ashley, but she knew you both had to work, blah, blah...* We worked on a scrap book for Jen and we're going to give it to her at her party tomorrow. I think we did a good job. I made a page of me, her, and Ashley that said, "Waaazzup wit ur gummay?" and "u got some major gummage!" Some inside jokes between us, I think she'll get a laugh at that.
I like all of those girls and they're all my friends, but we just don't click anymore, ya know? Brittany and I kind of do, but the other 3 I'm just like ehhhh?? It's like we're on a different wave length or something. I don't feel all that comfortable with them telling them my opinions and problems and all that good stuff. They're always talking about things I really don't care about either. I don't know all I can say is I'm so glad I have Lara and Ashley for friends. I can be my total self around them and not give a rat's butt. They're my home gurls! :)
I went to weight lifting and saw Matt Ford drop some weights on his stomach/crotch area. That's always entertaining. Brooks is talking to me again, it's like ummmm....
I will not say anything about how much I despise Kristin Bilbo either. Nope, not at all. :)
Still no word from Marcell. I mean I don't expect him to call me or anything and I know he doesn't have the internet at his house, but a part of me still hopes he'll pick up the phone and call. I can only try to call him when my mom isn't home because I don't want her freaking out. Oh well, maybe me just sending him a letter would be better. I wish my mind wouldn't race though when I wonder what's up with him. I think I inherited part of my mom's worrying problem.
All this Taylor Hanson stuff is just weird. Brittany told me it was on radionow (local station) that he got married even. I mean it's not like I'm freaking out going, "Oh my gosh, oh my gosh, he was supposed to marry me! I'm going to kill myself." But it's just weird. I can remember all those late nights of Ashley and I spending the night together watching all the home videos, looking at magazine articles, listening to their cds, just acting like typical teenyboppers. I remember getting on the internet talking to the Laurens, Erin, and all these other Hanson fans about what was new in the Hanson world and all that. And it's like with 1 of them getting married, it's only a memory now. I mean I'd like to think my teenybopper days are over, but a part of me still wants to be 11, ya know? It's kind of like wooooo their goes part of my childhood. Time for me to start growing up. In my mind I just always pictured Hanson to be sweet, innocent, Christian kids. Now one of them is supposedly married because he got his girlfriend pregnant? Hello, welcome to the real world. But if he loves the chick, good for him! I just can't imagine being married at 19. I think I'd rather shoot myself. It's not like he hasn't seen the world and experinced life like what every young person says they want to do before they get married though. Ok, I'm done, but hey this is Hanson we're talking about here.
But some good news is floating around and it's actually true because Isaac said it, the album is done! They're going to mix it, tour, and then release it. WA FREAKIN HOO!! NEW HANSON MUSIC!!
Oh yeah and a new Good Charlotte albun in October. That causes another WA FREAKIN HOO!
Too anyone that read all that, I love you. :)
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Wednesday, June 12th, 2002
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I'm BORED.
But what's new?
Oh well, one of these days I'll get a life. Maybe when I can drive. ha
I tried calling like 5 times. No one picked up.
So I'll just drive myself crazy with my own thoughts again. Fun.
Justin Littlefield is scaring me.
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Sara picked me up and we went downtown and got our cartliges pierced. I have my cartlige pierced twice now, I can't wait until I can put a hoop in one of them and it'll look all cool. :)
We stopped by the other Sarah's house and stayed there for awhile. We went to Bil's and Sarah stocked up on candy and we all stopped by Foister's Flowers and got a job application. I decided I want a job. No more sitting at home on my butt. Except I don't want to work nights or Sundays. heh I know, I can't be picky though.
Other than that nothing has really happened, except I'm HOT!
Oh yeah...Taylor Hanson married? What's this? I'm cracking up. I gotta go read these rumors. He was so supposed to marry me. :)
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| Time: | 6:23 pm. |
| Mood: |  stressed. | | Music: | Ja Rule, Ashanti, Vita, Charlie Baltimore-"Down 4 U". |
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Missing someone gets easier everyday. Because, even though it is one day further from the last time you saw each other, it is one day closer to the next time you will.
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I think one of the Hanson guys like taking pictures of their instruments a little too much. That's all they post at hanson.net. The photography is cool, but I still would rather see Hanson themselves. Since there's some of Zac you know I have to post them. I'm going to marry him one day. :) heh
I went to the open gym for basketball tonight. We just messed around for awhile and then we played 3 on 3. We were all so out of shape it was pathetic. I wanted to kill myself cause I missed so many stupid rebounds. Oh well, I hadn't played in forever. We lifted weights then Hannah and I ran for awhile. We can lift weights every night so I'm definitely doing that and running. I have to do something or my butt's just going to get bigger.
I have to say that I didn't miss Kristin. She drives me crazy sometimes. She'll be all fake sweet and then she'll turn evil, then she'll apologize. It's a constant cycle. I hate that. Sometimes I just want to shake her and be like, "Do you have a real personality??" Who knows?
When Brittany and I were leaving Aaron, Chris, Seth, Kristin and Emily were out in the parking lot talking and I looked over at Chris and he had a green bottle of some kind of alcohol and his eyes got kind of big when I saw him take a drink. That's so freakin stupid. Drinking and driving. It's ok if you want to be stupid and drink, that's you hurting yourself, but why drive? You could get in a wreck so much easier and kill innocent people. I mean if you're going to drink, don't drive, do it half way responsibly. Is it that hard? Something bad is going to happen to some of my classmates, I just know. Hopefully it'll wake some of them up.
Ok, that's my rant about drinking and driving.
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I CANT SLEEP!!
I fell asleep after midnight, woke up at 3 for like an hour, then woke up at 7:30.
These are not normal Nicole sleeping hours.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
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| Time: | 2:23 pm. |
| Mood: |  good. | | Music: | Angie Aparo-"Space Ship". |
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I saw a Taylor Hanson look-a-like at Buger King today. Well, Taylor Hanson look-a-like from the back. When Tay had his hair all 70s, layer style. Yummmyy. heh.
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| Mood: |  melancholy. | | Music: | Sarah McLachan- "I Will Remeber You". |
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Sarah McLachlan > I Will Remember You
I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
Remember the good times that we had?
I let them slip away from us when things got bad
How clearly I first saw you smilin' in the sun
Wanna feel your warmth upon me, I wanna be the one
I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
I'm so tired but I can't sleep
Standin' on the edge of something much too deep
It's funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word
We are screaming inside, but we can't be heard
But I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
I'm so afraid to love you, but more afraid to lose
Clinging to a past that doesn't let me choose
Once there was a darkness, deep and endless night
You gave me everything you had, oh you gave me light
And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
Weep not for the memories.
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| Time: | 9:27 pm. |
| Mood: |  annoyed. | | Music: | Hanson-"Dying To Be Alive". |
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I'm in a bad mood. don't know why, but i am. that's always fun.
i feel like punching something. :)
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weird.
frustrated.
exanimate.
shocked.
dorky.
okay.